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 * DREAMLAND ESSAY**


 * Choices are usually hard to make because they are usually about something important. If they are easy it's probably because there not really that important so the decision wont really affect you. I can honestly say that there are times I'm stuck with a choice to make and it can be about the littlest thing and its difficult for me. By the way I sometimes choose to do the wrong thing and it's okay because I learn from my mistakes. 'Making good choices can be difficult' is a theme that plays a role in everyones life whether we are in a book like 'Dreamland' or in life. Speaking from my own experiences and reading about Caitlin's in 'Dreamland' I would say that our perspective of difficult choices are we feel a little ashamed and embarrased about things we think we let happen so we keep them a secret.

In Dreamland, after Caitlin's older sister Cass ran away it affected the entire family. After that, good choices were difficult to make because everyone didn't really pay attention to what was happening and they only focused on Cass. In Dreamland wrong choices were made like when Rogerson hits Caitlin. "Dec.20 Dear Cass, I dont know if you'll ever read this. Maybe I won't want you to. But something's happening to me and you're the only one I can tell. I had a dream about you tonight and it scared me into doing this: In the dream I lost you for good. Lately I've been feeling like I'm losing myself, too. This is why. My boyfriend hit me tonight. It wasn't the first time. I know you can't believe I'd let this happen. I can't either. But it's more confusing then you'd think. I love him. That sounds so weak and pitiful, but lately, its been enough for me to forgive anything. But after tonight, I'm not so sure. He really hurt me, Cass. It still hurts now...." Rogerson hits Caitlin but its difficult for her to tell someone because she loves him even though it would be the right choice to make. We all act like Caitlin sometimes when we are aware that something was wrong and we know we should tell someone (the right choice) but, we can't, things aren't that simple.

I think this theme plays a role in everyones life. I was struggling with telling my mom a secret and she's my mom so there shouldn't have been any secrets, but, there was. Something happened a while ago and it was brought up again about me and my cousin.It was a big deal. (Anne knows what I'm talking about) I dont want to get into the gory details but, it was hard for me to make the right choice and tell her about it before, but now the secret was out and I had to tell her. Just like Caitlin, I needed something to happen so that I could get what I wanted but to afraid to come out in the open with to be out in the open. Hope you can understand how I'm trying to say this I needed something big to happen so that I wouldnt chicken out when it was time to come out in the open with something.

Like I said choices will always be difficult to make because we know the differance from right and wrong. We dont always want to do the right thing. we try to make up excuses to ourselves so that we can make it seem like doing the wrong thing was right, but it's not and this is why good choices are difficult to make.**